work environment ::

had just put down the phone with a potential supplier. my previous boss says, how the a manager treats his workers, his colleagues reflects how he'll eventually treat his customers. then i'd realise, its hard to get someone who is really dependable and capable. then again, how far the person can go in his career is dependent on his own initiative and how much opportunty his boss gives him. the person whom i spoke to over the phone, hung up on me halfway, kept going to his boss for further quotations, having to face my wrath. well, he has enough initiative to ask me what do i really need and even suggest talking to the boss for me. im happy with the customer service. however, im appalled at the bosses behavior. is it really that hard to come and talk to a prospective customer? someone who is willing to help you market and sell your items? or is it that you're trying to train your worker? if that's the case, empower him with information, so that he can hold his own with customers and suppliers.

i respect my previous boss, because he is willing to let me go and learn whatever's out there in the world. he's willing to inspire me with his stories, willing to allow me to make mistakes so that i can grow up and make his office a beter place, willing to be frank with me, yet never raise his voice at me.

i promise myself, i'll never treat my workers [should i have] badly and i'll empower them accordingly so that they can fly and take the business to greater heights. there'll be no 'shit being stirred' [quote my previous boss] and of course, no pmsing females. only nice friendly capable people. im sure its not hard to find.. the previous MNC companies's i'd worked for, has all those people. people who lunch together, people with accomodating characters. people who address issues retrospectively rather than nit picking on molehills.

new police story ::

the new police story not only looks good, but well, i think it's got some bit of a substance. i like the story. okay lah, cos daniel wu's in it. hahahaa.. daniel wu! daniel wu! he looks good even when he cries man! and he looks good when he's bad. *yummy* but he's got this typical ABC look. dunno why, even my church cell group leader also got this kinda sae - which goes, im a ABC. okay lah, he's not really ABC, but he's got this i-stayed-in-US-for-a-while look.

nic tse also look good but he's like some comedian inside. heh. charlie yeung also looks good. should watch liang zhu people. that's her 'dai biao zuo pin'. she still looks so good and her acting, its still commendable. she's another actress i like after maggie cheung.

its a good thing jackie chan's son isn't inside. *heng*

anyway, the above is a very libran thing. the whole looking good part. im sure yagong, lawyer, koko would also agree. its a libran thing. i repeat. hahaha..

anyway, should watch. =)

AHM ::

nono, this is not FHM's sister. Okay lah, can be lah, since i was told you can find FHM everywhere in the camps. Several guys can attest to that already! Oh okay, Welcome to the world. [to myself].

hahha, i was so lazy that i didn't sign up eventually and *horrors* didn't go to church that day too! anyway, funny things also happen in AHM.

1. my first ahm, i was running behind lousy gou. what to do? im a girl what, he definitely have to run faster than me. somemore he used to be sprinter. anyway, that was besides the point. i was quite sian diao liao, at the end of the bridge.. i was alternating between running and walking. but athough lousy gou was quite zai, he was also alternating between running and waiting. yah lah, when i was running he was waiting for me.

anyway, so i was running behind this really big and burly NS guy with lousy gou several metres in front of him. apparently lousy gou can't see me behind this really big guy. so while he was waiting for me, i ran along behind the guy and got in front of him. then i was like, "whey, lousy gou, why you so slow one? im already in front le." hahaha.. and he sorta believed i was faster. *triumphant grin*

2. the second time i ran, lousy gou was doing his 21km. being the lazy pig, i couldn't wake up that early, so i went for 10km with this churchmate of mine. we did plan to go together. anyway, halfway while running, on the way to the national stadium near the petrol station, we saw this guy A after talking to other people behind us, ran longside towards this other guy B.

Coversation between them:
Guy A: oei, [pant pant, points to guy B's shirt] *snort snort grunt grunt*
Guy B: yeh, [point to his own shirt] *snort snort grunt grunt* back
Guy A: hm! [gives determined look] *thumbs up*
Guy B: hm! [makes a face - crinkling his nose] *thumbs up*

my female churchmate and i concluded that guys are still primitive and they communicate through noises than words.

:P

anyway, i was thinking of doing marathon in 5 years time. thinking only. thinking marathon. hahaha...

back to london ::

aralin went back to london today at 12 noon. had great fun with her yesterday. branching at kallang macs, cycling at east coast and drifting out there in the kayak in the sea, trying to row furiously back with ominous black clouds threatening us, then laze around in grandma's place. all the while, laughing at the jokes, at each other's antics.

just wanna tell you cousin, i'll miss you and meanwhile, have a great year in school. hope to see you soon!

stars and moon ::

the married one named her newborn stars and moon in spanish and dunno-what-other-language. really exotic sounding name and the baby, looks soooo cute!!! can really get addicted watching her smile, diao you, yawn, covering her ears when she sleeps. can wait for her to grow up and walk around. then we can bring her go gai gai! she's a heavy baby 3.8 pounds. nearly the length of my elbows to the tips of my fingers. she already knows how to sa jiao! 6 days old..

so surreal still. that my friend is a mother now.

so weird yet intriguing, hearing her talk about labour pains, contractions and her habits which eventually affected her baby. her baby's more active at night. more importantly to have seen her change from an angsty girl to a feminine, better natured mother. feel so happy for her.

girl, apply for stretch marks cream hor? go swimming often and bring star along! *grin*

yay! second deal ::

okay. this might be a stupid move, cos like what someone said, you'll never know who's looking at your blog. i'd finally closed a second deal. quite happy cos it came quite fast right after my first one. *grin* really praise God. i sorta wanted to dedicate my business to Him like what my previous boss did. pray that His blessings will be upon the business. eventually, be of service to the arts industry and general public.

okay, i want to be also able to bring my family to all over the world. not having to worry whether can we afford to change the sofa sheets, cushions and what nots. :] not like now. not like before.

chop chop ::

got my chop today! didn't do the one i really like. cos its too long. well, i guess we all have to learn how to make hard decisions. well.

barbie dolls galore!! ::

was wondering around the toys department in OG today. yah.. Old Girl already, wandering around OG. hahaa.. was so fascinated with the barbie dolls as usual. realise most of them look like paris hilton. boy, do they look good! there's one which was modelled after a versace model. cool!

now barbie comes in a myriad of skin and hair colours. interesting. i remember my first barbie's a very glam pinky ballroom barbie. later on, it became some sorta frumpy plain housewife with dull skin and frizzy hair, thanks to my auntish sense of fashion and attempts at weird hairdo on her. hahaha, my then puppy took a dislike to it cos i play with it quite often and we often had tug o war over it. eventually, it ate her hand and other lego bits and well, that WAS my childhood and my dog's puppyhood!

hai, miss my dog.

anyway, after her, i had 2 other barbies as well. one is a paris hilton looky alike and the other one resembles something like child's play. dunno why, the features just look really bad.

hai, miss my dog still.

whaaat is this? ::

sorry, big time ranting.

just realised today koko's got a festival named after him. okay lah, he was named after a festival which was quite interesting. and he'll have mooncakes in place of birthday cakes. same goes for little black i think. so cute.

im named after a poet and it means like capable and talented. but the only poems/verses i know are those ABC kiam chai chaa lo ti type. unless you count bits of macbeth. woah..suddenly i sound learned hor? *starteth sprouteth elizabethan english* hahaa.. i so need my name to justify for myself. :P

made my chop today. good. im productive. yah, producing 1 action a day. hahaa..

little black went for let blood ceremony today. she told me it was black. sounds like some cult thing. erm at the chinese acuputure sinseh!

pure crap ::

just read this email on this article on the magazine on my other [almost ex]business. haiz.. sounds like crap to me. hope they never sell. i don't want to be caught up in some lawsuit for having once said we have 25k members. got my name in it some more. *roll eyes*

school school ::

im starting school soon. which is yay! very happy. and the director of studies recognised me cos i think i asked him so many questions. im such a pain in the neck. :P

in case if you're wondering, its just a leetle diploma. just another diploma. move on move on! hahaha..

i'm so sian and agitated. so much so i believe i can do 10km in 45 mins ::

my hp bills arrived today. i can't help but to IMMEDIATELY come online and blog. such effect, or rather should i say inspiration is [argh - insert myriad of vulgarities you like, then i realise, haha, the sentence doesn't makes sense]. the figure was horrid. i think im going to learn how to bar calls and bar certain people who loves to call during lunch time [tell me why?!] or simply just yak her time away even though i told her i was busy or overseas. that was the ultimate. ok, it's only 1 person or add me, make that 2. argh, why do i have to contend with this? singtel is not helping either. im charged 0.72 cents for every 'Ok', 'Hee' smses from singapore while i do my getaway in malaysia while the other party was using internet sms. [i could just 'pai' her. FUCK. she did it again! both ways, calls and smses] even having chatting using smses with one of my talk-cock friends doesn't even amount that. i was plagued by similar problems too on my china trip. getaway is just a ironic word then.

i want to change my plan. but i want to get a new phone you see. but im not intending to get a new phone soon. boohoo.. nothing goes my way.

the best bit was: the itchy hands of my youngest brother went to flip my cleo and happened to see the phone bills and he thought those were my mom's bills [yah lah, im still under age lah! ] and passed them to her!! im so going to get IT because she's not going to work tmr. maybe i should be evil and make him pay. literally. haha.. :P

i want to NOT BE NICE, damnit. i don't want to entertain stupid calls and smses on something which is based on some non-existent business ideas - keep telling me got ideas and never say what is it, where in the freak you're on the mrt and whether we will meet on the mrt for we're so not going to meet cos hullo? you live on the other side of the world and the only thing we share is jurong east mrt station on the end of north south line, and which freaking shop has got laminating machine? how would i know? i don't consolidate materials like that. you're in bras brasah complex for goodness sake![gosh, don't make me start on this! AGAIN!]

yah yah.. i know its not fair to attribute my bills to just a someone. but eversince i knew her, my phone bills went up, scoldings from my mom were more frequent cos she'd just blared her shallow talk at me over lunch time after telling her twice that im having lunch with my mom, having lunch!!!! and wanting to meet me up and discussing ideas which eventually never materialise cos its non existent and trying to tell me how to run my business. She's under my MSN list of suicidal intermoonies. ha! okay, her enthusiasm on me is not appreciated and no no she's not lesbian and i suspect her social life is dysfunctional. woah, never met guys who're so enthusiastic about me. then again, please. no. i'll give up on marriage.

i just hope the whole money/blood sucking bureaucratic singtel will collapsed like the soviet union under their heavy weight 125th anniversary promotions and their stocks will never rise again! eh, hahaa.. a whole load of bs. *roll eyes*

i think im going to change my plans tmr. to the iplan 2 or something. just when i'd a great deal with this supplier and this have to crop up.

creative nomad jukebox ::

creative nomad jukebox first generation, anyone interested? you'll never know, it might be antique you know and eventually worth your every buck. its unopened. Check it out, only left 6 days. *grin*

http://page.auctions.shopping.yahoo.com/sg/auction/87415599?aucview=0x23

si yi aka 4th aunt ::

hahaa, probably 1 year from now, i can hear some one call my si-yi liao! the married one's going to give birth. *gulp* very soon!

*lalala*

xiaxue.blogspot.com ::

guangxing >> you want something funny and entertaining go xiaxue.blogspot.com. Lai zhe li shi mei you qian tu de. hahaha..

down here only got my own rantings, pet peeves and grammar errors.

she's funny. really. initially, didn't really like her entries on Vivian Balakrishnan [which was like 1-2 years ago] cos i felt it was quite distasteful and she should just leave it to www.talkingcock.com. but on other issues, she's hilarious.

my cousin, had lunch with him on one of the occasions before she went england to study. she said he was an intimidating figure, everyone at lunch was in total awe of him and kept very quiet. the sae of the president's scholar. when he starts talking, you wouldn't be able to finish your chicken rice. and lunch lasted erm, if i don't remember wrongly, she told me was 2-3 hours. :P

i can so understand the situation, cos during poly forum, he was almost sound almost exasperated at the the dialogue session. erm, common phenomenon. /me looks at my lecturers.

that's really an uncomfortable situation.

and i've my sam pat tuition kid telling me that he's so good looking that people will make fictitious appointments just to see him. he's an eye doctor what. okay. the long form is.. opal-very long. i'll just stick with eye doctor thank you.

in case mr osgodby is reading this and he'll crown me queen of spelling mistakes. and this blog belongs to me only and ya gong doesn't have a blog.

mother of all mlms ::

man, check this out. www.gostuffs.com and http://www.snwmarketing.com/ebook/
im amazed. Its either pyramid or mlm.

i did my calculations. 25 people have to sign up meaning give them $70 bucks for their useless ebooks [ebooks?! which means they probably don't need to spend a single cent on printing packaging it. they'll just give you a link to download it.] which is probably only a chapter of what i read in the books in the library and it adds up to like about $1750 for a P910i. and well, they'll still earn like about $750?

put it nicely, its free gift. else, it'll be termed as collective *whatever*. but i was quite tempted to put 'stupidity' but on second thoughts, its quite a smart idea. *argh*

*shakes head* they claim they're a marketing company. it looks more like a scam to me and what amazes me was the girl who gave me the link was so pleased with herself. and obviously quite stunned by my own ignorance, i gave her a good rating.

why can't i get pass myself? [as in translated from chinese : wei shem mo wo guo bu liao wo zi ji zhe yi guan?] okay. hahaa.. am in a chinese frame of mind now.

productive i am *yay* ::

yay, im feeling productive today.
1. registered for my domain name/hosting package
2. sourced for suppliers for tracing papers
3. read a chapter of library book
4. installed windows office and outlook express in new hard disk
5. consolidated rotring products
6. did some market research!
7. did my namecard
8. met little blackie for lunch!!

okay, might have a lot of things pending still.. but at this rate, i guess everything will turn out okay.

haiz, i can't access the files in my previous hard disk. think will have to tweak the jumper.

2 masters and 1 slave ::

cool cool!! i'd managed to fixed my hard disk. and now i have 2 masters and 1 slave drives. now now.. what were you thinking? hahaa. :P

its amazing.. i didn't bombed my motherboard.. i can say bye bye to everything if i do. i'm so going to die. but guess what, life IS fair after all. muahahha.. :P

jeff chang ::

his songs have got this 80s feel to it. vintage i like!

the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak ::

i went for church today. [finally.] heh. well. im happy with myself. it was purely initiative on my part. my first step to reconcile with God. not that i was majorly totally out of the whole relationship thingy. just that, was a bit down and out spiritually. like what they say.. was a spiritually dry period. well. im glad i went there today. sermon was meaningful, doesn't make me fall asleep and worship, good.

before i make my relationship with God sound like some very detached thing, let's just say that i'm a little rebellious and lazy when it comes to things like this. my previous cell group deputy leader came up to me and gave me those prep talks, asking me why was i not coming for cg, church despite efforts from previous cell group leader/current cell group leader. i was really honest. i told him i didn't feel like. and i'll go once i want to without the need for morning calls etc.

i know my relationship with God was somewhat in the pits and yes, i know God is waiting for me to go back, like my dad when he waits for me to come home at night. but i just felt like 'tui fei-ing' tui fei - another word for it in chinese is 'duo luo'. like allow me to slack and wallow in my own world and forsake everything. i needed a break.

i guess one assurance i had was that i know that God will never forsake me. for my salvation was assured the moment i believed in him and that he died for me and rose again on the third day. that's the basest and fundamental faith i have and i assure you, if you believe, i'll see you in heaven because this thing - faith in God is after all the foundation of Christianity. And of course, it is further justified by history, time, geography.

i've friends telling me that they donate blood and money to less fortunate so that they can accumulate good works to attain nirvana/go heaven. i was personally quite disgusted cos their motive was not right. not that i want to be self righteous. but you donate because you want to lessen pain/burden for the less fortunate, not because you want to accumulate good works? doesn't it make the donations part sound very selfish and cheap?

i've friends who was evidently disgusted with me because i refused to donate to nkf. reason being very simple, just check out the national brochure, there's this long report on how their money was spent. given all these facts as since published in national brochure, i would rather donate personally to those people who really need money then to go through the hotline. not that i don't agree with the notion to donate, but its the antics they deploy, that i disagree with and thus my reasons for not donating. what if one of the artistes was injuried doing those stunts? surely there're better ways to raise funds? like collecting newspaper? having fun fairs?

i want to donate and i want to know that my money has been put to proper use.

if one wants to do good to cover one's bad deeds.. one'll never succeed because the damage was already made. how can it be reversed by/into good works? i don't understand.

woah, suddenly it sounds very dark. whatever.

"You can please all of the people some of the time, some of the people all the time, but you can't please all of the people all of the time." - US President Lincoln.

mummy mummy!! ::

i was walking along the shops in bugis when i heard a little voice behind me calling out for "mummy mummy". before i knew it, a little hand grabbed my fingers on my right. i was slightly taken aback, to see a little boy beside me, looking a little lost and frightened. eh, i was quite frightened myself to see him and to hear him call me mummy. my goodness. but he's really ccuuuttteeeee!!!!!!! aiyoh.. no no...im not paedophilic lah, but he's really cute. then his maid came up, pointed to me and said, "eh, that one not mummy. mummy is behind." then im like "mummy's behind" [pun? :P], looks around for his mother. Sure enough, this young couple walked up, laughing, calling out to their son.

ideal Singaporean family, complete with a maid. think he'll probably have a few brothers/sisters coming up thanks to new and improved government incentives.

met so many people in bugis today. met workaholic-EEE-girl and her armed-with-fantastic-programming-skills boyfriend. my poly friends. had a nice time catching up with them. twas fun [i meant the chatting part], meanwhile waiting for yagong. otherwise, my ears would have been blasted away by the melekah tourism board's roadshow. their singing was excruciating.

had a great time shopping with yagong, doing some girly stuff, [nice nails!] trying out some clothes and talking. lousy gou came to join us later and yagong went off to be blonde [points at guilty party california fitness]. so ended up eating and shopping and walking up and down boat quay with lousy gou. babe called from US, chatted a bit. am glad she's settling down good there. we went to pat a cat and sat down near the waterboat house and talk crap.

spent good quality time with a few of my closest friends. am happy.

only for a while, felt a familiar tinge of sadness, when i saw someone today. same feeling different person. wow. isn't it an improvement already.

valley of emotional rollercoaster ::

im at the bottom again. didn't feel like doing anything, cept to watch sad flash movies. wish i had popcorn to stuff myself silly. but i can only contend with ice cold water. my only consolation is that, my sound blasters are working.

latest progress on jumps ::

i can touch the ceiling now. without running before jumping. *grin*

singaporean girls ::

nopey, not talking about sia girls. hahah, just consolidating funny stuff me and jewel shared the other day in respect the to previous blog entry.

jewel says singaporean guys like girls who are sweet, demure, accomodating, _understanding_ [laughs!] and doesn't talk back, doesn't give opinions. man...this is so true. /me looks at lousy gou who likes girls who giggles uncontrollably sporadically, big busted, has chalk white, pimple free faces and can stroke his ego. wait wait.. erm, yah...add those physical attributes in.

she noticed a trend.. why the 5 of us are not 'domesticated' yet. cos we're probably just the opposite of some of whatever is represented on top. [most of us, in fact all of us are very opinionated] hahaa, this is so true. from uni to poly.. erm, well i guess the majority of singaporean guys are in this category. [okay, maybe our statistics a bit biased but heck!] girls who got attached are probably in forementioned category.

anyway, no no, we won't, WE WON'T and ARE NOT doing to de-evolve into some whinny, homey, peel you prawns missues. w[ait] l[ong] l[ong]..also don't have.

by the way, witty gou, hahaha...you'd asked me to include you more often in my blog.. there you go.. [wrong timing *shakes head*]

lost in transition in the process of moulting::

was just talking to jewel. she says i did in a way changed quite bit since secondary school. i used to be more accomodating towards ugly events and incidents, now i have stronger opinions on them and tend to be quite harsh when relating those incidents.
some people, especially those whom i'd just met recently may think that i may be bitchy and un-accomodating. since these attributes had only surfaced recently. :P and its a possibility that they're here to stay. *sees you running away*

4 years ago, if i hear such comments about myself, i would probably feel troubled, lose weight and spend the rest of the week in the toilet, trying to deal with all the shit.. hahaa.. but now, even if someone says that in my face, i don't give a shit. and i don't take intangible shit from anyone. and in return, its highly likely that they'll receive bird-flu-infested chicken head or some vulgarities courtesy of yours truly. of course lah, i won't do it like publicly. but rest assured that the same amount of shit you thrown at me, i'll make sure the shit grows some elasticity and it will rebounced back to you.

okay, enough of this shitty thing. let me just tell you bits of things i personally cannot stand. not that im not that this, im sure i have my irritating moments which is self activating. :O

people who justify themselves[via words].

this guy from school who did really well and all etc. but he's got this really sucky attitude which others would probably termed as 'dua kang'. at the end of the whole poly stint, he's got this award and upon interviewing him, he was like, oh, i didn't do well for psle cos i this and that, then i went to a lousy neighbourhood school, then unfortunately, i didn't do well again in sec sch and thus, i ended up in poly. finally, i got what i deserve.. and im like what?! what a load of bullshit. bad luck don't follow you consistently for 10 years loh. if you're good, you're good. if something bad happens to you, go through it, try again and don't screw things up again. prove yourself via actions. yes, you did it finally in school which is something which you're supposed to do since you're so rich and didn't have to work thus can afford to spend all your time studying. so don't rake up the past. its old use-it-to-wipe-your-ass news.

woah.. i know a few people who really did proved themselves and im really impressed with them. it may not be a really big thing that they'd achieved [but some of which, is REALLY big anyway], you can see their conviction, the efforts they put in. they're the ones who really DESERVE whatever they are enjoying now. people like bad guy, NYAA-HH etc. they're the ones who ultimately will do their family and friends proud.

so you shuddup.

self sacrificing people who later complain.

what's the point? if it makes you so uncomfortable...don't volunteer. or just continue to be unsung hero. don't complain. *rolls eyes*

insecure people who simply refuses to tell you what's wrong with them on pretext that you're their good friend.

i thought they're my good friends. im interested in your life and want to share your woes. and im certain that sharing that saddening aspect of your life will lessen your burden for after all joy is double and sorrow halved if shared with a friend. wassup with not wanting to tell me? you said you value your friends.. if you value your friends.. you won't subject them to this kinda worry. worry that you'll do something suicidal, worry for not being understanding enough to share your problem.

okay. just allow me this right to argh argh argh argh argh...!!!

dress up ::

hahaa, mom bought me an interesting tube dress, a mix of western and south east asian details. it's denim at the top with funky beads on the right side and really colourful batik bottom. it's looks really happy and girlish! and argh, it cost a bomb. was wondering when i can find the occasion to wear it.. birthday? christmas? new year? its been a long time since i actually wore dresses. hahaa.. the last time i wore a skirt was at the married one's wedding. yagong suggested a power girl's saturday's outing. hahaa... now the problem is, i must go and find a pair of ballet pumps to match the outfit.

ahh.. happy girly problems~!!

therapeutic moves ::

talked to ya-gong yesterday, talked to jewel today. talking to your friends can be so therapeutic, intellectually simulating and fun. talking to my close friends/cousins can help you re-organized my life. you give some, take some and everyone's happiness index increases. =)

you get like the most frank in your face opinions and say the darnest stuff and you don't FEEL judged. unlike people i'd met recently, people i'd met even in school.
you don't have to impress them. hahaa.. everyone knows everyone's chao kuwan. so much to say, so much to share..

*muackies* love you guys! babe, ya gong and jewel.