out and about ::

im counting down and today is my second last day at work unless im popping by again on monday to teach the new staff what to do.

very glad that i'd made the decision to go talk talk and eat eat with babe and ya-gong. its always fun and funny with them and they make my day, despite i was quite tired.

wanted to get something for my colleagues, but i really dunno what... chocs? cookies? in the end, i walked up and down the aisles of marks and spencer not buying anything. :P

got a lot of uberture work to do. so sian. i can't help it really.. i felt quite harrassed. hahaa.. :P maybe that's not the way to out it, but babe says i should be more erm, assertive. but indeed i do have a vision for the company. then it makes me wonder really am i a suitable programmer.. cos from one year of programming, i really doubt it. i would rather do something else on the long run..

boss says i should try marketing, thanks to the analysis i give him each time he sends me for seminar. should i? or maybe just plunge into business.. i really feel like going to warwick to study. but what if something drastic happen back in sg?

babe wanted a deadline and backup to get married in case she hasn't got a bf after hmhm..age 29? heh.. then ya-gong said it was too late, should plan the backup around 26. and we're like SHIT! only 5.5 years left! ahahhaa.. then again, in case if you're wondering if we are bridget jonings, frankly, i don't know. haha.. gotcha! you thought i was going to say something intellectual right. hahaha.. :P its quite scary, esp you think about the married one who got married recently.. Anyway, when back home, jerm came up with this pet bf! hahhaa... interesting..

im having a sore throat now. what a time, esp when im going to china next week. quite excited.. but i don't feel like im going to china on tuesday. :P but i'll enjoy myself i promise you. hehe.

sappy taiwanese flash dramas ::

this is so sappy. but aaaww.....
heh..
http://cw3.so-net.net.tw/techfun/kokoro/

conducting interviews ::

today i helped conduct interviews. couldn't help but to feel sad when this guy, slightly younger than my mother dropped by for an interview for a junior programming position. in fact, he was quite overqualified, so me and reves, tried to tell him that, but he seemed quite adamant about getting relatively low pay so that he could at least find work. when we checked his resume, we thought he could have been out of work for at least a year and he's got 2 kids. probably our age or even younger.

i don't know, but could sense that he seemed quite forlorn when we told him that he may be overqualified. reality can be so harsh. i see my friends zipping ard in a porche, travelling around in national team competing for 'ultimate' glory and this older guy looking around for a job, for a junior position, struggling perhaps to feed his 2 young children.

i felt bad about people having masters, taking leave from their work, coming, hoping that we can give them a job when we are only primary school kids and they probably know enough qualify to be a secondary school teacher and only to find out that we are not looking out for their set of skills. waste of time indeed..

so many people are getting microsoft certified. suddenly, it doesn't seemed that impressive anymore. oh well..

eyebags ::

im like so tired today. huh, and its a amazing that i hadn't fallen asleep in office. i think i hvae to attribute it to my dad's green magma ala young barley leaves drink, it has 120mg of potassium, to keep me awake.

i fell asleep at 4am yesterday, doing my uberture stuff and its a good thing that little black was beside me keeping my morales up and entertaining me. she's good you know, a good little fighter in life and in combat. the next arena she has to conquer is probably academic. heh. *jia you*

i was like showing her all the photos fellow nuahster sent me. it was funny, and well, her "idol" was in those pictures as well. so are the pretty girls and bad guy.

it was a good day despite, simply cos at the end of the day, i managed to work out quite a bit at wushu and had a ok dinner. and the BEST part is, i saw mr clean aka the then guy with nice back view hurrying with his tripod i think, from macdonalds to the kopitiam i was at and then walking towards my direction, before turning his back on me and walking towards the carpark.

he looks as dark as ever, with his bronze rimmed glasses perched on his nose, messy hair and grey t-shirt, walking his sloppy walk. come to think of it, i cannot remember much. haha oh well.

but that sure gave me quite a bit of motivation to do work. heh. gabby was quite amused.

sian - an sudden overwhelming state of restlessness for no reason whatsoever ::

it was a philosophical yet nuahey day.

i took a cab today and was talking to the taxi driver about life. humph, i suddenly realise i know why am i so not here and not there anymore, maybe I'd already realised it but you know, sometimes you need some in-your-face reminders.

you know, full time tutors in SG probably don't need to pay income tax and CPF. im suddenly quite tempted to be a full time tutor. but then again.. neh.. hahaha.. so scary, got to be RESPONSIBLE for their bad working attitude and lousy learning capabilities. okay lah.. im the one with bad working attitude and lousy learning abilities. hahha..

i quit my job, i supposed i'll have even more time to pursue whatever i want to do now.. i think precisely because i have all the time in the world to do whatever i want to do now, i feel kinda lost. erm, money aside that is. no, i didn't quit my job because of money. i quit my job cos

1. i can't stand it anymore when you have to be the dartboard for someone simply because they are pms-ing [read my company's a convent] - they say your monthly cycle will eventually synchronise to coincide with the people around you.. and when they do, its not a joking matter..[my company is around 40 strong i think]
2. programming is so not fun. *humph*
3. i want to help in daddy's buisness.
4. i want to have more time for my friends.
5. i want to have more time for myself maybe my family [been spending quite a lot of time with them].
6. i want to STUDY and take exams.
7. etc

but i will miss my boss, lady boss and one or two other staff. my boss and lady boss were so nice to me. give me my monthly pocket money [heh] and perpetual ration of titbits, motivate and inspire me. my boss even asked me to go back if i needed a part time job during school or vacation job. i guess its really God's grace.

i digress, but then again, if you're willing to work, i don't see how bad the economy is, how difficult to get a job. unless you want your starville, manhattan card, golf membership? or maybe i was so blessed that i don't even have to write any resume since graduation.

okay, that's besides the point. i went to tuition a bit sceptical about having studying more, and pressured about being the first child in my extended family to work. should i work instead of studying since after studying, you'll have to get back into the rat race again? humph. then again what's the rat race about? back to your starville, manhattan card and golf membership? hahaa...

argh, lose it lose it, its a good day to just sit around and listen to norah jones, penny dai and curl up with a good book or watch some melodrama.

so tired.

-don't have too much expectations on whatsoever. they'll let you down.

Babe's back from US

Babe's back from US!!! Im really happy about it man..so long no see her. Miss her bossing me around. hahaa.. *sadistic*

I love ya!! *muackies*

bitchiness ::

I felt quite bitchiness recently [and last time too].. haiz..
My nice even temper is gone.. My secondary school self is gone.. I want to be amiable leh..but been feeling quite angsty. Maybe Im experiencing a late phrase of puberty, you know, hahaa..that phrase which makes you feel rebellious? I don't want to feel this way, but I can't help it.

Oh well, talk about emotions. About being affected easily..
how not to be affected? Anyway, I think Ive got a perfect excuse... cos Im a girl mah..

Ze me yang? Bu Shuang ah?
ahhahaa..
OOps. :P

china trip ::

Im going to China in a week's time.
Im looking forward to it since my job is driving me slightly bonkers.
By the way, Ive quitted it.


Yay, going to Fuzhou, then possibly to Xiamen and later Chengdu to see pandas and back to Xiamen and then Fuzhou!

Im thinking of going to see the Harkka Earth Towers in Fuzhou, soak in one of their hot springs and visit Zhu laoshi in Xiamen and then see pandas and JIUZAIGOU in China!!! Im really enthu about the trip!! YAy! I hope my money can last though. hehe.. Ive got a feeling that I'll be off to a wild shopping spree.. Some one stop me!! hehehe..
I want to eat xiao long bao!! all the snacks!!

Wanted to train initially, but my dear jiao lian psychoed me into going on a sightseeing tour.. there goes my stamina and skills..
:P

hahaha...

first time blogging after 2 months ::

Im blogging again, or rather, Im blogging now and whether I blog again, Im not sure. hahaa. Anyway, its been an eventful day and of course, I still owe you guys a lot of homework ala the previous stuff I've been wanting to blog and stuff..

Anyway, now I just want to say.. How come you're not talking to me today?! :'( will you be as sad as I am when Im offline?
Okay, no one knows what Im talking about but never mind, Im ranting and that's what I usually do recently.
:P

oh well, allow me to tell you about recent events first. Inter-sch comp was recently over. Was quite disappointed with a few of my juniors cos i felt very strongly that they lacked sportsmanship. They seemed to be blaming everything and everyone for their loss in the arena and in turn, poisoned others in the team by saying, the judges don't know how to judge, the carpet is slippery etc..humph, I think you should just re examine your attitude towards training and initiatives. Sad right?

Im tired.
whatever.