simply zai ::

it was an asian competition not world wushu champions. haha.. there were good news actually. little-black was back safe and sound. she's pigging out like big time, cos she claimed that she had been deprived of food in bid to lose weight to participate for her category. so poor thing right? they made her ate laxatives. eeks. but she'd been eating and eating ever since. ahhaa.. woah like that next time how? you'll have to go throught another cycle of binging? zhe li he zhe li yao hen qiang!! /me points to temple and heart. kekeke. :P mental powers dearie..

anyway, heard they had a wild time there. or 'crazy' as koko would put it. i don't know how wild, but there're like funny evidence of people being red-faced and drunk and grinning silly-ly at the camera. keke..

the Singapore flag was flown and national anthem played thanks to koko who had averaged 2 gold for combined results of taijiquan and taijijian. which made him the best and most consistent contender in taiji events for asia. he'd got silver for both events. when i knew sg'd got 2 golds online on friday night, yah.. kinda expected that one of it at least would be his. great job nevertheless! :D next year some medals more okay? haha.. you can do it one lah.

*waves pom pom* go go go!!

babies, depth of thought and so much more.. ::

i was like totally surrounded by 4 year-old-and-belows the whole day yesterday and believe me, its so hard to ignore them. sooo cute!! yah man, i must have been that cute too and probably irritating as well cos my mom says i shouldn't have learnt how to talk: i started quite early and i didn't stop talking. Apparently i drove her quite crazy with my incessant questions and chatter. so crazy that she got someone else to take care of me. ahhahaa..

anyway, i was so amazed at the stuff they say and what they do. my friend's kid is only 2.5 years old and she knows how to operate a computer, portable vcd player and she knows what's a website?!! damn. that was only in my vocab like when i was in sec 1? good grief. i wonder what will she be learning when she's my age. and she couldn't stop looking at me, smiling at me and giving me this horror themed vcd. hahaha.. what was she trying to imply, i really don't know. but hey, she's very willing to let me carry her. ^^v ay!! all babies love me okay, except maybe tara cos she can only see 25 cm from her face which means she probably doesn't recognise me yet! :) puppies also. hahaha... don't let me go near your puppies, they'll be mine (mine! mine! mine!) by the end of the visit. *evil grin*

my friend says her daughter will come to them in this perfectly straight face and ask her and her husband if they still love her. she demanded an answer and asked if they would forgive her if she had done any wrong. and its only after they declared that they would always love her, she would show them the 'scene of crime' and look at them with her bambi eyes. hahaha.. goodness.. so cute~

my bro left the last page he was surfing open and being curious [okay, made that kaypoh] i maximised the page to see what was it. it was a blog by this girl classmate of his, reflecting on her thoughts and stuff. i was kinda reminded that my brother has grown up le. he's 15 by the way. and honestly, its only been around a few months that i'd recognised that fact. all the way, i still remember him very much as the 'humbao' as he was always crying and the mental picture of him crawling around the house is very much still fresh in my mind. anyway, that was the only few things i remember. i have quite bad memory. those stuff yagong, jewel and babe could recall during the school days, i probably could have forgotten most of them. that's quite sad right? and that's why i needed some kinda reminder i.e blog. and really, i kinda regretted not taking a lot of pictures when i was younger. i still don't take much but well, its quite a heavy price to pay when you know, you forgot what happened..

okay, i digressed. back to topic. yah. i was quite impressed with my bro that day, [i very bad hor. hahaha!! internal joke] when he volunteered to pass me my wushu weapons to the mrt during my wushu days. gee.. okay, im the bad sista here. i order my brothers around like the empress dowager orders her enunches around. but i think now they'd grown up le, i shall bug them less.

the other one of them was attached already and on my last last birthday, he and his gf gave me this candle with my initials on it. ö boy, think im the only one in the house who hasn't grown up yet. hahaha.. but it was really quite heart warming. ahhahaa.. :P okay lah.. i very pai seh now. hahaha..

in case if you wanna know them, for the benefit of other younger girls you happen to chance by my blog. erm, sorry, they're quite taken le. the younger one probably has a fan club in school. good grief.

hm, i realise after having kids, you would get very carried away.. and i think my parents did. and eventually, your youth's wasted on worrying over the kid's diapers, food etc etc and you struggle to maintain some form of balance in your life.

so sad right? hm. and the whole cycle will repeat themself over and over again. or will they?

on the topic of depth of thought. i think im sorely in lack of it nowadays. help, im turning bimbotic!! argh! okay.. i'll stop preaching prosperity, about guys and clothes and make up [like i do, but that's besides the point, the point is.. my neurons.. they're not there!].. i'll morph into this intellectual aunty who sprouts 'chengyu' since the government is pushing for bilingualism recently. bleh. anyway, my england also shifted to china already. im so not in tune. arg... -.-' [deadpans myself in the mirror] argh.

i was at eastside on sat with cell and 2 of his friends. hahaa.. i think i was quite not entertaining. you know sometimes its just so hard to talk to certain people and you just kinda hang there. i kinda wish i was buried in the free flow of buffet food but me, being me, was feeling too sorry and pai seh to get my butt off the cushy chair and get more food. ahhaha.. don't ask me why, yagong and me had discussed this, but we'd come to a conclusion which i obviously hasn't done anything pertaining to that conclusion. okay.. sorry, that's another story. hahaha.. anyway, i was quite quiet and everyone was being just nice. you get the idea.

most of whatever they're saying, i really don't catch it man. no thanks to myself for not listening properly when babe gives me her 'guess-my-mind' quizes. ahhahaa.. now, who says men don't listen and women can't read maps. im one of those who don't listen and you know what, i can read my maps very well. thank you.

hahaha.. bring me [and a map] when you're torpe-ing in the jungle or in a foreign area.. you'll never get lost. im quite good at it. buahahhaa..

sorry, one whole lot of nonsense. nice of you to finish this. *grin*

what kinda friend i am? ::

little-black, koko and the slanted-eye-one flew off to myanmar for competition le. hahaha.. and argh, what kinda friend i am? i actually wanted to go see them off and guess what, i didn't get my facts correctly, and in the end, by the time i was reaching the airport, they boarded the plane le. i won. goodness.

all the best to them. hope they come back safe and sound esp for little-black and with MEDALS!!! :P

i went out with my juniors instead, haha, shopped with them, ate a bit of jap food, exercised my brain a little in calculating this receipt error. then went to my lousy gou's house to watch ong bak. okay. good show i must say. im amazed by his leaps. instead of going up then coming down, he seemed to be able to travel in the air at a constant speed before landing. the punches he throws are very straight, clean and exacting. very cool. not much acting inside, its all mainly visually arresting martial arts cheorography, emphasized by several continuous shots of the same action at different angles. the actor executed his stances very beautifully too. i think i'll like muay thai too if it weren't that vicious. :P

then lousy gou and i went shopping in bedok. they'd pasar malam there. met bin bin. stupid bin, went to 'tiak' my head and still dare to grin at me. ><" *poke poke poke* everytime bully me. in camp also bully me. :( and koko ALSO! *takes out abacus and starts calculating old scores* *roll eyes* anyway, it was a speak of the devil thing. cos we were looking at this bohemian type of clothes, then i was remarking bin bin's got this kinda style and little did i know, he popped out later. goodness. it was so xie men. :P

okay, then aftre that i went home loh. that's the end of my sunday. 24hrs do seem so short suddenly. okay okay, not 24hrs, i slept 3 quaters of it.

boring life ain't it. like i always say, my life is perked up by my friends. glad to have you guys~ ;)

decisions decisions decisions ::

wushu camp was good, despite being there like only for 1 training session and 1 night. haha, watched a bit of shark's tale last night. am glad i didn't go watch the movie, cos it idn't exaclt interest me. think its the speakers. couldn't hear properly man.

bin bin kept saying the place was dirty man. and i was like having creeps. and each time i went out of the room, my eyes kept looking at this parapet near the clubhouse door which bin bin said 'he' is always sitting there. *eeks*

watched them play risk then i had quite a fitful time trying to sleep cos the lights weren't off. hm, don't ask me why wasn't it off, it was someone else's idea. quite ironic it seemed.

went for class today, i need to buck up man. hm. test's next week.

anyway, before that i met up with jule. hm.. so glad i'd seen her. we had this chit chat about working and making decisions. she's got a job at this place which was really far from her home. goodness. and the pay is so low. :P but then, i think she'll like the job, if it allows her the kinda creativity it said it entails.

we need to learn how to make hard decisions. everyone's grown up now. time to start saving for the 3rm flat... :P

world wushu championships in myanmar? ::

hope i got the above correct.

anyway, little black, koko and their team will be down for competition in myanmar this nov-dec. hope they'll emerge VICTORIOUS! Grrr..

all the best people. i'd ran out of encouraging words. i think other people would have better things to say. but anyway, really, CHEONG yah? i have faith in you guys.

little-black, take care!! hope you'll be able to trim your weight sucessfully, if not very lugi. remember, God will be with you, always. Love never fails. =)

koko, beat that rabbity-looking guy. eeks. but by not too much yah, we need another medal. maintain that top form and be a bit zi lian and take lotsa pictures yah? keke.. :)

haven't blog properly in a while ::

its been a long time since i blog. anyway, haha, not that anyone notices, but hey, i have totally no idea who reads my stuff man. not many people tag me? or left me their comments? hm, or even their opinions. hm. this is a ghost town man.

anyway, the purpose of me starting up this blog is

1. record my life since i turn 20. if you'd realise, i'd started the blog on my birthday! hahah. anyway, yah, was thinking, since i seldom take pictures, i shall use another way to remind myself what i thought about, used to do. at least, i can reluve my memories a bit since im quite scatter-brainy, em. key word is 'scatter' by the way. hahhaa..

2. vent my frustrations. but then i realise, haaha.. i can't really do that man. wtf? *roll eyes*

3. update people about my life. hm, hard to say, cos being the lazy me, things do get half done you know.

anyway, have to roll my sleeves and get cracking.

just something to update

went for this workgroup session with elim chew, douglas foo and andrew quek spearheading the discussion. quite interesting. met interesting people. talked abt social enterprenuership, entreprenuership etc. i agree that its more of a can-do spirit rather than just you know, like setting up shop by yourself and bao ga liao. elim chew's this really nice lady. gain a lot of insight. - she said.. money is not everything. but money is the ONLY thing. hm, okay, considering she has a christian background, maybe poeple may thing it sounded really questionable. okay, but me being money minded, i kinda agree with her. :P but hey, now, my problem is finding the christian grounding in it right. ahhahaa.

met ls from paym. hm, i think they should really go into it and use erhem, uberture's idea. if paym implements it.. its going to be super duper huge scale and wow, i doubt they'll ever lack the manpower and they'll get to their objectives eventually ala passing on nowadays youth good values and clean fun. but she was saying paym's quite draconian. hm. well. its time everything changes.

met this guy who knew someone from uberture - the ultra nice one but i think got ethics problem. invited me for a guided coaching session. should drop him an email, but no time this week. wushu's having camp and i love my juniors so much that i wanna go and join them once those tickets from china arrive these few days. anyway, i digress, i really DON'T KNOW what happened to my stamina. okay, maybe its multi factoral - like i really had a full dinner? :P but i didn't lasted the whole round of SP - jogging. damnit. :( i can STILL feel my sambal chicken prancing in my stomach.

met someone who works in mcys - assistant director. he's willing to intro me to someone in sports division. yay!! which is good, cos im really whiney about the singapore's sports scene. i mean, part of it lah. but hey, a lot of policies, i think the athletes themselves, they don't even like know.. so a lot of plans probbaly are not being implemented and maximised.

i think the session didn't turn out to be as good as they hope to be. most of the people just wanted to be there to learn. :P myself included. and i do blank out once in a while. i can't seemed to grasp that kinda perspective they are looking at. did i go there in the wrong mindset or what? Okay, but at least there are different perspectives..

my mom tuaed me again. woah.. she was quite keen on me becoming this housing agent, then now she says no, cos need to attend course and invest 650 on myself. hm. what does she want me to do man? learn how to draw money? there're a lot of red tapes in my family. my mom's the biggest. even my aunt agrees that she's difficult. not just me hor. i love her lah. but sometimes its just too much and trust me, its never the money. gave her 500 bucks for household, she comes and tell me that some air stewardess gave her mom 800?! then i asked her to go and learn english, she promptly refuses? and my cousins are knocking me on my head blaming me for spoiling the market. no fair man.

anyway, stella-ng-lookey-alike cousin went for some SAF display and she saw our BIG UNCLE! with BIG UNCLE AUNT. direct translation. anyway, bad move. cos her ns bf was with her. and over the weekend, the whole family was discussing about her future in the grandparent's living room. i mean, the whole extended family. i have 9 uncles and aunts. add that up including the younger cousins.. were almost all majorly gossiping about she and her ns guy. goodness.. how scandalous.

then her mom went on and on about her status as a student.. what kinda guy she should look out for.. i.e family background *shakes head* for a while, i thought i was listening to some korean drama and wtf? that was yours truly's extended family~!! and that they shouldn't think about marriage first and continue their own seperate paths. irony is that her mom knew the dad since an even younger age and they got married pretty fast.. and this? hm. *blinks blinks* my mom likes the bae yong jun type by the way.

goodness. im at such a loss for words. i could only go .. what? heng i'd already told my grandma in my broken hokkien that should she want a grandkid from me, she'll have to tan gu gu.. no one will come and bother me. *sweatdrop*

but hey, babies ARE cute. im a convert since i fell in love with tara!! =) lalala.. tara tara..

i went to farmart and was quite bowled over. saw this puffer fish which resembles a submarine, zipping around in a plastic bowl. quite interesting. i saw the largest goldfishes ever with my sonny, giving us crash courses on the koi. im amazed. there's even some kinda hierarchy among the fishes. saw this shih tze i really like - so naughty, kept stepping on its companion. met bin bin's friend's love bird, which totally will stick to human beings. so cute!! it'll climb all over you and you can feed it out of your hand. and when you try to put it back into the cage, it'll put its foot at the edge of the door and try to stop you from closing the door.

little-black's schnauzer's really cute too. don't think it was as naughty as some other ill disciplined dogs i'd seen. initially, i thought the dog would try to chase me around the house and bark incessantly. but apparently not, miko is so lovable! except when i tried to carry her, she growled at me. otherwise, she's always begging for attention and maybe biscuits. hahaha.. she's got really cute ears too!! her fur is wow. very nice to pat. hm. so cool.

Happy Birthday Flower-baby!!!!! ::

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i miss you! and i know i always seemed to be like missing you at odd times. but hey, sometimes, life in SG without you is boring ya know. you're the drama in my life though you sometimes do get my nerves. [anyway, 8++ years of friendship, i'll be lying if i said i hadn't and i got on your nerves tons of times too since im the perpetually late queen.] anyway, like what jewel said, you're the sae-queen of the clique. go eat at kopitiam also wear sunglasses. its amazing that we're so different and yet still talk cock.

thanks for encouraging this lok cok friend here, quite ready in dispensing how-to-maintain-the-sae advice, gives and takes some of my nonsense, gives me practical advice and indulge in fish mee sua with me. im really happy for you this instance and hope you'll have a great year ahead with your ang moh. no lah. there's no such term as an spg in US right? your ang moh should be the spb - sarong party boy, since he's now in love with you and should learn how to party in a sarong. and well, don't think there's much asians around in school right?

fret not girl.. i know sometimes we'll feel a bit lost here and there and there's no street directory in life. but hey, really, i think you as someone with a cause - remember your save-the-trees, save-the-rabbits, booze-drowning campaigns. live it. campaigns may change, but your passion towards these causes should never cease. its good to learn to be a bit emotionally unattached so that certain things can't hurt you. but its tough, after all, its only human nature. human nature to feel. that makes you, a person on the whole right? an unique individual. =) don't regret your choices, never, because you have more options to experience other things than you think you'll ever have. but of course, experience the legal things. :P

Love you and miss you. *muackies* may this coming year be fulfilling and you'll be showered with many tons of blessings. make sure you have enough strength to hold them up. also, like i'd said earlier, don't think you can wear less once you're 21. hahahhaa.. :P winter now. can you go bao yourself up like a ba zhang? *hugs*

typing with one hand ::

my fingernail on my index finger almost came off today during training. :P goodness. what's the moral of the story, never attempt to smack your feet when your fingernails are long.

i'd lost like quite a bit of blood. enough to feed 2 mosquitoes i think. feeling faint now. ciao ciao.

must thank my junior zh for helping with rescuing my fairy godmother finger. and my little juniors for your concern. so sweet!! *muackies*

*yay* going farmart tmr!!

woah.. ::

am suffering from hangover from yesterday's training. and i wrote quite a lot of crap yesterday night, i mean this morning man. anyway, i forgot to say i almost chopped off my left eyebrow yesterday with my long tassel sword, goodness, i don't have luscious eyebrows to start with ok. arg!

our version of a car pool ::

some girlish talk... *bimbo grin* *hic*

jewel says:
i so am into cars.
shit.
hahaa
i want a lot of cars.
to suit every mood.
the Gungho mood.
the girly mood..
the serious mood.

mizroo says:
hahahahaa...
woah.. if we have that kinda ability.. you know what.. we can SHARE!
we'll buy all the cars and put them into our own car pool.

jewel says:
YEA MAN
il get a mini
u get a ferrari
yagong get a lexus.

mizroo says:
other people go into car pools because they want to save money.. we buy cars because we want to have one to cater our every whim.
hahahahaha..

jewel says:
yea..
man...
that shd be the way

mizroo says:
yesh!!!!

what's your business ::

despite my mini online business, my mom's telling everyone that i wasn't working. and she's like 'encouraging' me to do something else, after all, there's not much income coming in from the mini business. well.

2 days ago, yagong was like telling me about this real estate industry thing and she got me quite excited. quite interesting you know, like checking out other people's homes and helping other family resettle into the homes and you earn from it.

so i went for a real estate talk today.

hm, suddenly realised im quite involved with a lot of things. my mini buisness, wushu, studies, tuition and probably this real estate thingy. i agree with jewel that indeed i do need to prioritise my life a bit man. okay, tuition is out for now. studies, that was what which makes me stay grounded and im during what i really want to do. as in studying itself. that's already what i want to do. wushu, something i can't really let go and my mini business.. which is starting to bud. and now, this real estate thing.

okay. im used to juggling a lot of things at one go. and there's this time i got so sick of it. was giving 6 kids tuition, doing NYAA [that meant wednesday afternoons and saturady mornings burnt, sometimes sunday mornings], full time studies and training for wushu. okay, i'll need to refrain from this kinda burnout. but what to do, that was trying to have a fulfilling poly life and struggling to earn my keep/sch fees.

surprisingly, once i graduated, i got so tired of everything and just wanted to have a simple, slack life. hey, im a fresh poly graduate ain't it? [by the way, im probbaly quite stale now, 1 year stale] im supposed to be energetic and willing to pia and everything, but im just not. my ex colleagues work the whole day and spend the nights working at a lounge till 3am in the morning. honestly, i don't have that kinda energy. my carbos are going to all the wrong places man. :P

anyway, then this other problem popped out.

but im too tired to blog. sorry people. night.

im quite gone by now, i may not be making sense. my apologies.

the killer wushu training ::

coach Z and coach fish-in-st-john-island took us for wushu training today. can tell why all his beloved disiples ended up in national team. it was really xiong. :(

anyway, my stamina and physique were really bad man. my juniors are even better than me le. my hou sao tui is "mo yan tai" one. Ala no eye see. -roll eyes- i want to have quality over quantity, but given my current physique, i think doing 1 quality thing also quite hard. some of the theories are easy to comprehend, but you know, you just can't do it. apparently, the motor portion of my brain was not working. the worst part is, i know if i can't learn and get that technique right, i might never ever going to do it next time. cos for a simple reason, im getting older and probably can't jump and skip around like my juniors.

quite sad thinking about it. anyway, my arms are aching from all the typing. shall end this entry here.

hp ::

my hp has gone bonkers. you can forget about reaching me on the phone.

someone donate me some money and a new phone. thanks.

wushu update ::

coach Z has been encouraging me to got for coaching license next year. initially, after coach G asked me to go take the licence last year, i was so happy - thinking that it you know, kinda affirmed my abilities in wushu and stuff. okay lah, i wasn't that great anyway for you info. then after talking to some seniors, i realise the more i know, the more i don't know about wushu. no wonder senior fish-in-St-John was like laughing his head off. there's still a lot more to learn you know. then i got a bit skeptical. and furthermore there's theory and practical. and with all the kinds of politics going on in there, made me feel quite disgusted with the whole system. but then again, i guess its it end of next year, i should have enough prep and with coach Z's help, i should do alright i guess. after all, next year end going to china again for training. coach Z said he'll bring me to go beijing to see snow! i wanna see pandas too!!

anyway, last monday's training was really very xiong. i can feel 6 pac growing everywhere. my abs, arms, quadriceps, back. argh.. okay lah, 6 pacs only develop on the abs. but just to emphasize the amount of trauma i'd been. hahaha.. i managed to do the top part of xuan feng jiao ok. my er ji tui is okay too. thought i need to work on its ending. can't seemed to power up right leg for it to come down faster. so i normally land on my bum. :P my qian and hou sao are crap. and im so amused that senior fish-in-St-John and senior Model-Wannabe can put up with my nonsense. *shakes head*

need to improve on my jian. and physique.

little black cried in china. haiz.. think training over there quite tough for her. somemore she said she's the only girl there. me a bit upset about it. but girl, jia you yah? i'll keep you in prayer!! you'll be back in SG at no time. triumph over this and you'll suffer less in myanmar. *hugs*

sleepless in jurong ::

a few firsts happened recently.

1. was properly taught how to cook an egg
   
2. talked to a fortune teller and he told my fortune.
   
3. bought 4d
   
4. did not win 4d (haha..)
   
5. skipped my class
   

was feeling like really demotivated. slacking around and really irritated with certain people and myself. guess, i was always irritated. :P i need to you know.. get my act together. okay, despite me saying this like for ages, but its time, i sit down, reoragnise my notes, my goal lists, my wants, needs, my room, my priorities etc. tidying the room has always been therapeutic. but im not much of a cleaner. stuff will get piled up like pretty fast. okay.. that means i'll have to do up a routine.

Anyway, here's my
to-do list to start spring cleaning :

1. tidy up my book shelf and box of notes. The books have been collecting dust since sec school. Need to rid expired books and donate books i no longer read to the library.
   
2. make space for stationery, photos
   
3. organise all the photos into albums. or make collages and paste them on my wall.
   
4. shift the direction of the bed. Time to change it.
   
5. get rid of the box of notes.
   
6. start a blog, detailing those information i want from my mags and get rid of them physically.
   
7. clean toiletries box
   
8. do up a calendar, draw up schedule to reorganise my life.
   
9. my wardrobe. full of clothes.
   

i did a bit of clearing up, which is good. and i guess, this will eventually progress to next year. and that means i probably have less to clear during spring cleaning. yay. and that means, my mom will have something less to nag about.
good. i have convinced myself.

to-buy list:

1. An alarm clock
   
2. An in out tray
   
3. maybe black mounting board
   

now-till-mid-2005 goal list :
please refer to later blog entry. Im still like working out. need to REAFFIRM my goals. and you people.. do hold me accountable. need some smacking to get things done! :(

okay cool.