another offer ::

okay! i'd received another offer this morning. it woke me up immediately. haha..
good grief. good.. more should come more should come..

my dad fetched me from the north today! :D very happy. heh.. then i chatted with him about what i'd learnt and stuff. think he's quite happy that im happy learning.

hm, must work harder and
1. bring him around the world.
2. upgrade to at least 4rm.
3. get him a nice car to travel around with
4. bill-less life.

wahaha...

1 offer, first offer ::

hahaa, co-broker called just now, to offer for the flat i'd showed recently.
so happy!! :D hope the deal goes through. heh. which will probably mean ka ching ka ching! yay!

also, buyer made an offer for a apartment i'd arranged. ;) lalala..

hope next month, it'll be like that too. more offers. more exclusives..

kungfu the movie ::

i should have watched this on a weekday instead. gee.. its not worth $8.50 at all. i think stephen chow was just banking on the ang moh hype on chinese martial arts. his older shows before shi shen were better. shi shen onwards..cept for perhaps shaolin soccer which was only so-so, were totally crap... *duh*

yes, there was a story line. the climax was a plateau, very predictable plot.

was quite disappointed. geesh.. return me my $8.50~!

work updates ::

*yay* been working hard even on days i didn't feel like. quite glad and what i'd learnt these days is really applicable. despite the nature of the job, salary etc not being so regular, i actually enjoyed it. perhaps i get to walk around quite a bit. interact with people more.. hm.. but i definitely had an easier time going through the whole process and im willing to work very long hours on it.

jia you jia you!! *muackies myself* teehee..

brought 2 buyers to go view the houses today. their response was good. i hope they close the deals, by this week! :P

haha.. i met another buyer in cck today. the family whom i'd helped organised and planned viewing schedule for. my colleague told them the schedule was planned by me. then i was supposed to say something, so i went "glad you'd enjoyed yourself, at least my efforts weren't wasted.." OOps!! :P i didn't meant that.. i was totally quite caught in the moment, lost for words. but i really wanted to say if not it'll be a waste of your time if i'd arranged viewings on houses you didn't like at all. argh!! me and my puny brain. haiz. but glad everyone were laughing. :P thank God.

drooping stamina ::

ran yesterday and this morning. ended up with aching limbs. haha, i haven't been running long dist for the longest time. thank goodness i didn't go for stanchart run. 5km is daunting enough. thank you. i think i'll have to slowly find ways to rebuild my stamina. hopefully, within 3 months, i can manage 2.4 below 11 minutes. like last time. erm.. hahaha.. make that last last time. *sighs* hahhaa.. jia you jia you.

anyway, after the round around sp, i did managed to do 3 sets of swordplay inclusive of 1 full set. before training end, i did calf stretches. better than i thought it was. work out wise i mean. :) am happy.

head coach demo-ed on us some of his can-make-you-fly-6-metres stances. im always amazed at how he manages to do that. it doesn't look human. gave me a feeling that im transported back to the old feudalistic china. those wu xia eras. too bad, now, you don't get people bringing their swords, travelling around the mountains in china, trying to learn new skills, live in inns with a blur xiao er around. ahhaa.. i wonder how they got their money also. hahaa.. so, how much does a wu lin meng zu earn in a month? what about beggar sect leader?

anyway, i was so amazed at the existence of yi jing jin!! apparently one of the china prof who taught us in china majors in it, and she's qualified to teach. hm. imagine that's the coverted wushu manual last time! i mean, in those wu xia tv serials. hahaha.. so not real. gee. hahaha. anyway, anyone keen? its actually chinese yoga.

lost in a whirlpool of emotions ::

hm, back to our reality, [ i can't help feeling that the tsunami disaster is so surreal. ] im stuck in a mess of emotions and dunno-what-to-feels.

wushu juniors seemed to be distancing from one another. tis sad. considering they are the juniors i positively adore, 'teng'. but now, i find the bonds we share eroding [ or perhaps there weren't any bonds at all, save for a few. *shrugs* ] .

hm, i think i'd invested too much time in them and they don't seemed to appreciate it, therefore, im feeling very pissed off. eh, not that i want them to appreciate what i do for them. you get what i mean? how should i put it? at least don't give me attitude when just because you're in a bad mood or don't feel like humouring me? not as if i'd vent my anger/frustration on you. the below will sound quite personal. oyu have been warned.

if you don't agree on what others say, there's no need to make snide remarks or talk behind my back. i can honestly tell you that what i do for you guys, i do it because i want you all to feel better. so that you at least have something who is willing to hear your side of the story. and not stuck in some never-ending emotional pits. im sorry if all these helping turned out wrong, as much as you don't want it, i don't mean it to too.

unless you help yourself.. no one can help you. i did not patronise you. so don't you patronise me.

i know my limits and work within them and i don't practise wushu for the sake of setting an example to juniors alright? it is your onus whether you improve or not, not my duty.

lesson learnt : shuddup, move on and not waste time being nice to people who doesn't appreciate it.

im just plain tired of it.

lost in the sea ::

haiz.. tis not such a good year after all. with a major disaster to end it. with so many lost and so many dead.

my condolences to the bereaved families.

I had to agree with this article extracted from Todayonline.com 28th Dec 2004

Humbled by Nature's power
William Rees-Mogg of The Times

WE SHALL never know how many people have been killed by the great tsunami in the Indian Ocean. No doubt the number of identified casualties will continue to rise, but there will be many more who are missing and there will be grieving families who gradually have to give up hope.

This is a human tragedy on a huge scale, caused by the action of Nature rather than Man. It is said to be the worst earthquake in 40 years. Yet in its scale, and in the mixture of damage from the earthquake itself, and that done by the sea, it is the most awe-inspiring earthquake that has happened in a lifetime. No previous earthquake I can remember, has destroyed property and killed people across a whole ocean.

The earthquake itself is said to be 1,000km in length; the seabed was opened up as though by a zip fastener; this event threw up a gigantic wave three storeys high, which travelled for thousands of kilometres.

One can understand what happened as a result of the stress between two continental plates, but one can hardly imagine it. The force generated must have been as great as that of a thousand nuclear bombs; no doubt that can be estimated and will be.

It is not only the level of casualties that impresses human consciousness. We are accustomed to millions being killed in major wars — even the Iran-Iraq war, of which the world took surprisingly little notice at the time, caused well over a million deaths.

Aids kills by the millions each year in Africa alone and has killed a total of tens of millions already.

When all the figures are added up, it looks as though the tsunami may have killed a few tens of thousands. The statistics in themselves are not what shock us. It is the scale and force of the event, and its geographic character. If such an earthquake happened in Europe, we would be able to trace the fault from London to Rome, or to Berlin.

If a tsunami 10m high stormed its way up the Thames, half of London would be under water.

If such an earthquake ripped through the San Andreas fault in California, it would virtually tear the state in two, and cause trillions of dollars worth of damage.

We view with awe a release of power on this scale. We know that this power is greater than that of our species — nature holds us in its hands.

We may be able to mitigate some of the consequences; in some cases we may be able to give advance warning of the threat; but we are not in control; the tsunami has demonstrated this ancient truth.

There are lessons.

First, no doubt, is that we should extend through the Indian Ocean, and other areas of risk, the scientific warning system that exists in the Pacific.

If an alert coastguard in Sumatra had observed the earthquake, he would not have known who to warn in India or Sri Lanka, although they could have had a couple of hours' warning.

In the wealthier Pacific area there is an organised warning system, which has reduced the casualties from tsunamis.

The world will no doubt give aid to the areas that have been hardest hit.

In Sri Lanka alone it is reported that a million coastal people have suffered serious material damage.

The world needs to be generous. By and large, the tragedy has fallen on poor countries and tourists, not directly on the inhabitants of the wealthiest cities of the world.

This could have happened to Tokyo, New York, Los Angeles or even London. That is one reason for the great cities to dig deep into their pockets. They have been spared.

The disaster should also impel all the nations of the world to give further thought to the needs of the environment.

As it happens, global warming seems to have had little or no connection with this event. But the tsunami did mimic some of the effects that global warming is now expected to have.

The great wave, in an hour, told the world where sea levels might be in a century, or perhaps in a couple of centuries.

If the sea rises, it will flood the coastal areas of low-lying countries.

Mankind has built a fragile home for itself, with the growth of the world's population, the exploitation of natural resources, the spread of diseases from overcrowding and modern transport, the dependence on modern technologies — some of which are very vulnerable to upheaval — and the tall buildings which are open to terrorism.

That fragility is the real danger of the modern world. Even after 911, the great cities of the world have continued to build symbolic skyscrapers that are almost as vulnerable as the twin towers in New York.

The biblical story of the Tower of Babel had been the blueprint for modern cities.

The tsunami mocks this pride.

Perhaps our modern skyscrapers would withstand, as some tall hotels have withstood, the rush of the water. But our global system has an arrogance that challenges the forces of nature.

It is as though mankind had decided to tweak nature by the nose to show who is the boss. The tsunami has demonstrated that nature, and not mankind, is still the real master.

It is ironic that the poor of the earth have taken the brunt of the suffering.

If a million people have had their homes damaged or destroyed in Sri Lanka, there will be another million on the coast of India and more again in Thailand and Indonesia, perhaps in the Maldives as well.

They will get some aid, but nothing like enough to make good their probable losses. The proud have had a lesson, but at the expense of the humble people of the earth.

Nature can be a brutal moralist.

one liners not ::

i hope i don't get angry with this girl who keeps calling me up for re-assurance.
i think im commitment-phobic.
haha..
be it girls or guys.
just kidding. ;P
no lah.
just that she kept calling and calling..
im tired of having to re-assure her again and again.
then again, who and how am i to help.
im as lost as she is.

2 juniors very upset with each other.
want to help them.
what happened sound like a tragedy to me.
really hope they'll be alright soon.
spoil friendship, spoil relationship.
how melancholy.
hope they won't misunderstood my intentions.
not as if, its like damn noble. *roll eyes*
but definitely, there's no antidote for that.
not even time.

completed watching shao nian zhang san feng yesterday night.
somewhat amusing.
also another tragedy though.
there's some philosophical meaning behind it.
don't understand why it should end this way.
i think the characters in the end also don't understand dao de jing.
neither do i.
zhang wei jian is a charismatic actor.
impressed.
some fighting scenes quite corny..
some parts very interesting..

that reminds me.
my standard sword arrived le.
have to start practising with it soon.
its heavy.

its a tiring day ::

i spent more than 14 hours running around bt batok, senja, jurong, orchard today. its been really eye opening day for me. learnt a lot of stuff.. like how to talk to customers.. how to incorporate hdb rulings into negotiation strategies. how to convince the buyers. how to properly talk to fellow agents and my own strategy in starting up a small base. yah, someone may be using the same strategy now, but i think it might just be the entrance to more work and exposure. humph.

its zzz time. heh..

bounce like a ball ::

for little black :

bounce like a ball. the harder you fall, the higher you rebound. :)

you can and will do better.

its been a long time.. and its quite a recent discovery for me too. results are not everything. but what matters most is the spirit of perseverence and strength dwelling in you which matters. these are the attributes which will put you through life.

results are not everything.. other things can fail you even if you have good results.

adopt a positive, "keep-going", forward looking attitude and nothing can fail you.

*muacks*

will be around if you need me.

lastly, God still loves you and he'll always do. :) depend on him spiritually and he'll give you strength and wisdom.

monday blues ::

im happy now doing what im doing and im glad i'd quit my previous job. not that its not good.. i really like my boss and lady boss. they were so nice to me. but i don't enjoy the environment and often get monday blues long before the start of the week.

honestly, i'd never felt more "workaholic" then before. its quite fun and im beginning to get the hang of calling people and talking to them and sussing out the market. i know i may not be the quickest thinking agent around but most certainly, im learning a lot bit by bit.

quite excited! hahaa..

dunno, apparently in my family, there's some sorta stigma against sales job. well. haiz.. so having to get a degree is still inevitable. jia you jia you!!

some retirement calculations ::

if you have 200k, it'll be good if you can invest in a property worth around 1 mil. rent it out and you'll be able to get back your monthly repayment rate plus a positive cash flow of around 4k a month. talk about investing.. eventually after 30 years.. the property will fully belong to you and you earn full 8k a month. ain't that great. you'll have enough for retirement!

time to save save save!!!

sweet stuff ::

I chanced upon this..
honestly.. we see stuff like this so many times.. but how many of us really practise it? maybe its just too chi kui for girls.. after all, like what the national brochure likes to put it, we're still entrenched in our Asian values...

sorry arh, lazy to change the guy's version into small letters.


If you see me walking the road with someone
else,
It's not because I like his accompany...
Its because you're not brave enough to walk
beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my
heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him..
But because you're not there to catch me fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going

Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..

Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with..

Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..


"HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to
walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that
stand before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your
heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you,
It was because you never gave me the chance

You never reached the bottom,
you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going

Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side

Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with

Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with..

WHEN I SAW YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...

WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...

WHEN I HOLD YOU...
I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...

NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...
I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...

SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...
BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...
THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...

away away.. fly away.. ::

yagong and jewel are in cambodia now. haiz, no girl talk til 22nd dec. sian. miss you both!!

babe!! don't worry. physics.. im sure you can do it!! think mr wee.. teehee..

anyway, haha, next week's my mock and im still argh! *looks at myself, looks into my brain* nothing's in yet. im done for!! boohoo..

started with the realty thing. woah. yagong's mom's really power. she's got like endless lobangs. before i knew it, its already 4pm when i thought i was hungry. anyway, my flaws amplified themselves then i took on tasks after task.. i MUST CURB them.. those bad habits and ability to think on my feet and stuff.

haha, i realise you must talk in a slightly condescending, fast, singlish-accented manner to get your deals done with agents. else, those agents will think you're new. hm.. or the other stuff i said gave myself away? :P but its indeed an eye opener. all the down and dirty stuff. im surprised. i enjoyed the learning process. yey!!

okay.. should continued to stay motivated and work hard.. and plan for future. glad i have yagong's mom as a mentor. she's a good negotiator. lotsa quick thinking. good thing i am on her side. :P

dennis wee's course ::

its really motivating. :) you guys should go for it.
lotsa surprises were sprung on us. thank God i didn't lose any money. :P ahhahaa.. *hint hint* anyway, the instructors were funny and motivating. well. you can term them as charismatic. even the most fierce looking one. i was quite amazed. ahhaa.. i thought they would bully us around and one of them even look like a triad boss!!

should go should go.. i can't tell you much here lah. but i think its really worth the experience.