singapore skies ::

its been cold weather no doubt. *shivers*

very happy, cos there weren't much naggings around the house recently.. until just now. whahhaa.. anti climax. bleh. but heck, i supposed cos im seldom home now. out doing crappy stuff. which means hey, i need to secure 1 appointment per day!! shall encourage myself to conquer by appointments instead of targets of money i.e $10k p.m(?!).

managed to get some rubbish out of room, will get rid of the other clutter soon.
1) clear out unworn clothes, bring to salvation army or something
2) clear old old notes -giving up tuition for good
3) wash some of my clothes. :) now, that is something i have to learn.
4) wipe my pc
5) bring old books to .......somewhere. where?
6) old newspapers. OUT!
7) change bedsheets
8) do presentation kit
9) buy 3 files and file cases up accordingly
10) going to learn mah jong

em, its evolving into a to-do list! tada!!!

bbq at pasir ris is good. to think im going for chalet again this weekend. :P i miss my juniors, what can i say? was quite bored at the ecg chalet. i realise my bunch is pretty gossipy - thanks to cute-aunty. she literally epitomized the "eh eh.. i tell you hor". hahhaa.. but congrats to my now ex boss yagong's mom - one of the top agents for the quarter! she really deserved it. she's so pia one! /looks at my own mom - watch korean drama day in and day out. -.-" complains day in and day out.. even more -.-"



was just wondering if the awards presentation is just for ourselves and our clients - to know that the agent serving you is actually a "top agent". not that the agents don't deserved it. but you know, just a thought.. cos i think the presentations are a tat too frequent. lost the novelty/meaning/purpose of it. come to think of it, despite the group being nice helpful and stuff, somewhat it just felt like some high school clique. am afraid to meet the xdd there. good thing that i didn't lend him money to go for crest course. wah! mean is me. but well, i had plenty of reservations so don't ask!

went to church with little black last sunday. it made me want to go back to my own church. the sermon was TERRIBLE. it was partially amusing but erm, not very biblical. i was contemplating if i should give that pastor a break and try to accept what he was preaching. i just felt it was very shallow. or was i the one who is shallow? some parts made sense, but the whole chunk of it was ..whatever...

anyway, i'd never heard such bad preaching before. bah! but i heard they have another pretty good pastor, shall try to go again. :P since the timing is good. 4pm in the evening. teehee..

hur hur.. by the way little black wore a shirt with demin skirt that day and i thought she look very good. ;) like the combination. hahaha.. inspired me to go and get a similar set. teehee.. anyway, not to worry lah. im good. i ended up eating at gelare. waffles! and reading at mph. hai.. the joys for reading. :]

am contented. but still need to whack myself to work!

piqued i am, woe to me *humph* ::

yesterday's viewing spiralled out of my control. and i think i'm too tired about it to blog about it anymore. ahhaa.. wait til i have time and energy. but i concluded that it wasn't my fault and i felt quite betrayed. ok, well, this industry is like that you may say. that i must say, is rather true. therefore i conclude, this industry really teaches you how to put the blame on and bully other people. It also allows you to vent your frustrations on a total stranger. a stranger who doesn't really have bargaining power, well in this respect, you would have guess that the loser ( makes a L sign at forehead) is me.

bleh. :P

sian. okay. but i guess, it really tested my patience. from the broken communication line to how not understanding the co-workers are.

sheesh.

but well, its a good experience. *wah, still want to kid myself* whahhaa.. what happened to the teachable person i was when i first started? *sighs*

hm. after talking to funky specs today, i felt so encouraged. shall be focus and than i can be santa claus! =) after all, once should put in their best in everything they do. And i should learn how to say no.

i ought to be grateful for the things i have now.
- new second hand PDA
- new second hand hp
- motivating friends ( neighbour)
- meh meh, lambie, fussy and goutie sitting at the top of my monitor.
- etc. haha.. those are the only things i can think of

chiong arh! /wield sword and starts poking people around me.

record breaking!! ::

can you believe it? i lost 3 handphones in a row - over a span of 2 weeks. hm, almost 3 i should say. am feeling quite sad over it. cos the mobile my dad bought for me when is was sick.. i lost it already.. and my new birthday present - a phone.. well.. was misplaced/stolen whatever even before i could use it. it was BRAND NEW mind you. and hai.. i almost left my new 7670(?, have no idea, completely lost touch with phone models) in a cab that day.. and despite it being second handed, its only a day old. hai... i couldn't believe it.

anyway, my birthday had been nice and quiet and this year, was pretty heart warming. :) and "presentful". realise i'd grown older.. was talking to some people who're older than me.. esp those who're 2 cycles older albeit 24 yrs, 10 yrs older etc.. think they're sometimes children at heart too! and that made me wonder if adults do really mature over the years, cos some of them may not you see. hmm.. just a thought. cos some stuff happened and well.. it sorta gave me the feeling that they're still playing games with each other, "taking revenge, sulking, poking each other around" in a more vicious manner with a kiddish mentality.

On one hand i thought its pretty exciting, on the other hand i was wondering, did we really grow up and when im like 30, which is *argh* 8 years away, will i think and behave like them too. Or all along, im taking on a more responsible/so called role and missing out on the fun aspect of life.

Anyway, speaking of missing out on fun, just want to announce to her whole world that i'd dyed my hair. but sadly, after dying it, hm, i don't think i look more hip leh. i still look as geeky? :P anyway, it was pretty interesting.

hahaha.. but well, tis been a week of reflections and growth which i appreciated a lot and i hope the coming months and weeks, i will continue to be even more motivated and find the purpose in working harder.

Started reading Purpose Driven life by Rick Warren. Prayed that God will *bling bling* and bless me with more motivation to enjoy his word and goodness! ^^

*yay*

Juniors having camp this week, but cannot join them. very sian. missed training very much. hai.. should try to go down on thursday.

Gambatekudasai! *oush*