im the one eye jack of the cyber arena ::

just found out about this new website to download free mp3s. www.baidu.com
i feel so unethical.. but im broke and don't have a cd player damnit.. is that now justifiable?! /slams table.

i thought the world's going crazy.. see what happen to my fore brain?
*bonkers*

addiction ::

im addicted to everything except work..

1. pirated mp3s..
2. msn games...
3. monopoly!!! heh..
4. shopping...
5. reading other people's blog
6. looking through friendster..

im done for!
:(

Indian History and Politics

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
what is Kashmir? sounds familiar.. but couldn't pinpoint what its all about.

ly is stressed. says:
Kashmir is in India..

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
those crack crack type?!! ahhahahaa..

ly is stressed. says:
the India separated rite therefore u got

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
India is considered south asian? ahahhaa..

ly is stressed. says:
India and Pakistan den...Kashmir is a princely state..which was not directly goverend by british

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
yupe.. sounds political.. but that's socialogy?

ly is stressed. says:
oh no dats a module requriement..so i chose sotuh asia.

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
princely state? i see..

ly is stressed. says:
cos i thot...quite interesting. princely state is like...they self-governance..but stil under british anyway..so after they separate;/all these princely states mus choose. to join India or Paksitan.

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
i see.. its in India? orh...

ly is stressed. says:
but cos of geography..and socialcultural diversity

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
then what did Kashmir did? they wanted their own independence?

ly is stressed. says:
that was much later. yea..cos Pakistan came abt becos this guy called Jinnah wanted a Muslim Homeland. so he wanted all the Muslims of India to seperate..have a nationof hteir own. but after the separation..mass migration etc..thats why India and Pakistan in chaos..

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
wow the Queen died and he made himself the King..sheesh...

ly is stressed. says:
den Kashmir the ruler..very indecisive...

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
oh.. okay.. continue.

ly is stressed. says:
mus have been a libran haha

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
interesting.. i like history.hahahahahaa..

ly is stressed. says:
den they were given a deadline. a date but he still cuden choose..

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
yah!! maybe!!! alamak.. then how?

ly is stressed. says:
den he also thot of being a soversign in his own right so India and Paksitan fought over kashmir. yea..thast why the Kashmiri ppl very sad.cos actually the Muslims

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
aiyah.. just like a divorce couple fighting over their 21 yr old kid.

ly is stressed. says:
they got along fine with the Hindus..all along..yea den...out of nowehere..they ahve to resettle..

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
just because of a Jin Nah.

ly is stressed. says:
many of htem died along the way...hunger..etc..

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
Gin Nah..

ly is stressed. says:
imagine now we say all the chinese move to bedok.. and all the malays to jurong.. jus on a much larger scale lar. haha

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
and we all died taking MRT.

ly is stressed. says:
LOL! yea something along that lines.

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
jia lat... but singapore will never have that..our housing estate got ethnic control..

ly is stressed. says:
lol yess mutiracial

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
woahahhaa.. even little india also..

ly is stressed. says:
policy mah

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
i see..but the Kashmir people.. are they muslim or hindus?

ly is stressed. says:
they are both! yea cos like. when the british divided India rite they divided according to majority areas. so like..if this region has mostly Muslim..then they go Pakistan but

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
they're stuck in the middle? uhuh.... Kashmir.. is it the place where now SIA flies too.. very colourful one?

ly is stressed. says:
these princely states were very complex diverse religons..etc..heh duno leh

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
so is that the British's fault?

ly is stressed. says:
in a way..yea they had a part to play too. also they were grogrpahically lcoated haphazardly so like..the british sadi..ok

eanne : updating my life, in case i forget all about it in a few days. says:
they like to divide people hor... look at China town, Little India and Bugis..

ly is stressed. says:
we separate the princely states according to geogrpahical contiguity yea/ den kashmir has to fall smack in the middle lol. plus..to maek it worse, lots of these princely states had Hindu rulers with Muslim majority..and vice versa so made the problem worse.


talking to jewel is always so informative. and well, as you can see.. i was clearly brain dead.

holiday holiday!! ::

its the holidays period again! Natas Fair is here!! cheap cheap cheap airfares!! i realised im really attached to china. no idea why.. maybe cos that's the furthest place i could afford to travel out of southeast asia. but hey, really. anyway, brisbane going at $480. im very gian also. but i do hope i will get to cairns eventually. great barrier reef, troipcal jurassic type forest, animals who carry pouches. koala bears!!

argh.. but okay. i shall work harder and go there backpacking eventually soon. maybe next year. well.. that is one thing i should learn to procastinate instead of work.

after going to little black's blog, the song here am stuck in my head now. tong hua by guang liang. nice. but quite sad. i think i like meaningless fast songs or melancholy songs. gee. my karaoke urge is here again. thank goodness, the lame president is having his break soon and he promised to bring the juniors and seniors (that's me, plus porky and etc) to KARAOKE to celebrate his release from his gangster type recruits! woahahhaa.. must thank his gangster recruits! hahhaa..

by the way, i lost both deals. okay. am not sad or anything. im taking a very laxed appraoched to everything now. just stay motivated enough to do what im supposed to do.. and not go overboard with things which were not within my control. i believe that a salesperson can make you buy something you may not want. but they cannot make you buy something you definitely don't want. but good for them! i want to see them in their dream homes. happy that is.

anyway, i'd got 2 listings today. am quite pleasantly surprised. but hope can close them also. if i want to count the eggs before they hatch, then its 3. yay! am almost delirious. almost recruited someone too. :P hahaha.. okay, they may not materialised. but they are simple joys which i think i should appreciate.

fulfilling day - brought 2 clients to go viewing. i'd decided to use another approach to serve my clients. that way, i can be more confident and stay motivated/proactive. didn't close lah. need to wait till weekend. hope everything can come to a conclusion and fast!

boss going overseas this weekend. i hope i can handle those calls. i think im going to be very busy. gut feeling.

i have no idea what overcame me recently and i went to reply those messages left for me in wholivesnearyou.com. and was subsequently bombarded with more messages!! i think i'd lost the conversationlist touch. can't seem to get to know people better, unlike last time. haha.. maybe there was no last time.. all along im like this? but think the the whole thing is so real. no girls messaged me? i mean.. i wouldn't mind, just come and chitchat. i would love to know more people. but anyway.. one of them got really irritating and he's now classified nuisance in my phone list. okay, cos i did a small advert for buying and selling houses on the bulletin board with my phone number. like they say, there're methods for working with money and working with no money. and well, i have no money. hahaha.. so advertise the cheapo way.

maybe those people have lost their marbles. why would people put in their worst pictures online? esp for zi lian people like me, i would definitely try to smoke myself a little and put nicer looking pictures right? hahahaha.. :P

i have a thing against people with a sweet mouth. very wary and i think you ought to be wary too. whether its girls or boys. kou shi qin fei. maybe i think too much.. maybe one day i'll end up like this client boss served - she thought everyone was trying to poison her.. and she told the renovation contractors are trying to out black magic on her cos they're repairing some of the tiles in the new place she's getting. but she's a poor dear la. even her own children can't do anything much. i wander what would i be paranoid about next time?

anyway, was thinking of buying a 3rm unit in town or studio apartment and furnish it up nicely and simply.. just enjoy a nice city lifestyle. everyday sit at the balcony and drink ribena. i saw some shophouses, converted into residential areas. its really classy and nice i tell you. kitchen, bar counter and living room on the same floor and you have a loft for a bedroom. wow..

now im so excited about the houses and am feeling less sian then before. dunno whether it was infectious or what. hahaa.. after my net friend felt sian.. i immediately felt the same. and my morale dropped even lower when i realised my browser couldn't load the monopoly properly. thinking about it really makes me feel sian and feel like buying a ticket to some place and camp there for 3 days. maybe i should just sit down in a cafe by a busy street and while my time away. wasting time will somewhat make you realise how precious time is. to me that is. reverse psych. hai..

little black tore her ligament. :( am feeling extremely sorry for her. ligament!!! you know, you probably can't play sports after that cos you probably can't even walk properly. that's like really sad you know. imagine, micheal jordan/yao ming couldn't play basketball, david beckham couldn't play soccer, yan wen qing cannot do wushu and tiger woods couldn't golf. i think muscles/ligaments too tired. strained and therefore broke. ouch. hai.. take care yah? *hugs*

is it really worth it to try so hard, work so hard for the spirit of sportsmenship? for the country, for wz? at the expense of your health? im quite confused now. how do we quantify and qualify these achievements?

someone thought i was capable. am quite surprised, do i really gave people that kind of impression? maybe they haven't read this blog, they haven't seen the other side of me. the lost and pai seh side. ahhahaa.. pai seh... i wonder if i were to have another best friend like myself, what would i feel?

closing update ::

almost had a nervous breakdown just now, cos almost 2 negotiations are going on at the same time and those were my tenants. so scary. but the battle had already subsided for ther day.. think they'll continue tomorrow. heh.

hope i win! :P

tagboard on mysql ::

chanced upon this error by tagboard.. so they run on mysql...

Warning: mysql_fetch_array(): supplied argument is not a valid MySQL result resource in /home/httpd/tag-board.com/httpdocs/my.tag on line 148

hmmh....

senseless ramblings ::

i want my crystal jade chicken soup... :P

new address? ::

i do hope we would be able to change the address in our ic by this end of year. anyway, i went to check out those flats at redhill today with my mom. i dare say its nicer than those at queenstown. the only setback is the noise generated from the mrt station. well.. i think that's not a good enough trade off. but the view was good no doubt. so was the location.

sometimes i think my parents they really like to daydream. haha.. either that, they don't take substantial steps towards what they want. They can sit down at the dining table and talk about the units for all day only to lament that the price of current house we're living in now probably doesn't give us enough leverage to buy another unit. and the worst part is.. i might have inherited that from them! ahhaha..good thing that i'd discovered it early.. must take steps to ensure things get properly done. so now, i think they're still caught in the dilenma of whether to go for balloting.

well.. $225k is indeed a hard decision to make. but i wouldn't want to live in choa chu kang? or sembawang? or yew tee? or jurong west.. that's like the one end of the world man. for a procastinator like me.. i don't appreciate the time taken to tour around the whole of jurong west before i finally reach the mrt station.

then again, isn't it back to the fundamental element of money? sheesh. i wish i earn a million bucks a month and i can book the whole block and let my parents choose the whatever facing. and what happened to the bring them go on a holiday dream? and my studies? im like beginning to wonder what had i accomplish after i had graduated? and what did i learn from poly? it sounds like a bloody waste of time now. my friends are all graduating soon and im still bumming about along the singapore river? the thing about being earlier out at 1-2 years is nonsense. in the end, you'll still lose out just because. your salary range will never be on par with graduates from Uni. you think you can get a pay raise of $600 - $800 in 2 years? *lol* my dears.. the curriculum is just so different.

dang, ain't that depressing? anyway.. sometimes.. we do all need a reality slap. yes, a reality slap. not check.. there had never been any reality checks before.. it has always been harsh, brutal and REAL, thus slap.

anyway, hope tomorrow can close 2 deals. ive got a bad feeling about one of it.. make that both. sheesh.

anyway, tell me im not pmsing. humph. good grief. i disgressed quite a bit.

so many plans, so little time ::

its been a difficult start of the morning. couldn't catch a cab to get to tuition in time. quite pissed cos this couple cut queue. i think i should write in to MP to ask them to erect a taxi stand along the main road. in the end, i waited a grand total of 30 minutes! Argh!

i had chicken soup today.. crystal jade style. i think im addicted to crystal jade chicken soup.. its really good and taste nourishing. hahaha.. am not really aure whether its that nourishing, but it tastes really good and nourishing to me that is. hahaha..

spent the afternoon at wushu camp performing for those kids. hahaha.. so cute. i was trying to imagine how i was like when i was their age.. was i as little as them.. and was i as cute as them? i think so lah, cos i always had this really cheesy smile.
hur hur..

performance was quite fuzzy. i walked into a gong during finaley and its a good thing that there was a huge flag covering me from the audience. so there was only the sound effect and no visuals. hahaha.. no one knew what was going on. shifu was really hyped up about it.. till he performed a few extra routines.. and yes, they were impressive. anyway, shifu asked me if the taiji item was boring.. [he taiji-ed someone behind koko when koko was doing his competitive routine] and im like.. nope. Nope, especially if there's someone you can demo your taiji on. and the poor guy he demo-ed on was like..-.- and asked "what are you trying to hint?" made me quite amused for a while.

went to tcc with nice-legs junior, wushusiaochabor and one guy junior. had a drink with them. but was so tired that i fell asleep when we were about to finish. wushusiaochabor and guy junior very nice, offered to carry my swords for me.

i'd decided to fast starting from today. 1 meal fast - lunch. like what i always did when my dad's in the hospital that time. :) Amen!

/me looks at list of things to do..

1) 5-6 CMAs
2) 3-4 buyers to serve
3) wushu club stuff
4) icm website
5) return caribbean keys
6) sign 2 agreements
7) work out filing system
8) pay school fees + phone bills...
9) caveat for certain condo.. letters and what nots.
10) any other business

looks like there's quite a lot. but hey!! move on dearie!! jia you!
want to complete them within the week.. *ousH*

cultural camp ::

yesterday was the first day of the wushu cultural camp in maha bodhi school. i dunno why, okay.. i know it might sound a bit over-the-board, but when i look at those cute kids.. so many of them are going to hell, simply cos they don't believe in Jesus Christ. made me quite sad. but before i had more time to feel sad, they were practically terrorizing me with their sniggers and 'he make me' antics. i was like complaining to coach that these children are just giving me major headaches.. and during their tele-matches, i was cheering them on, coach gave me a bewieldered look and said, "I thought you don't like children? and they give you headaches?" i was like.. well, not that i don't like them.. but teaching them is crazy.. cheering them on during tele-matches don't need brain work what... :P

And i think children esp those 6-8 yrs olds are adorable and irritating at the same time?! argh. so cute and its good, cos i had tonnes of patience.. with just about anyone, cept maybe my mom. :P

did bu pu chuan with them.. they passed! good!

i ate tonnes today you know. chicken soup, rice, stingray, vegetables, crayfish spaghetti, rodeo wings.. and i was like majorly craving for chicken soup from xiao long bao - crystal jade. oh no. i think now i should just fast/retrain/save/blah. its geting unhealthy. physically and financially baby.

was talking to shifu about china girls. agreed with him that they're a practical bunch and even sometimes, love to them was like a transaction. he said he met a lot of cases like that in China. tis sad.. but hey, on the other hand, you can't blame them also, cos its like a cultural thing since erm, Mao ZeDong's era?

political brainwashing.. backstabbing.. ive seen enough.. for the day.

what am i to do? ::

dad coughed blood this morning. i hope its an false alarm. :( lotsa crazy thoughts running through my head.. this is getting worrying.. Lord you promised me! Amen!