issues just get bigger ::

saw some of the wushu judges today. can't help feeling that the NSA itself is somewhat draconian in their way of handling things and over-runned by incompetent people.. esp towards promoting the art/sport itself, they're doing so little that ssc was hoping tat another perhaps commercial entity will step in and do the job for them. if not for the need to get judging license from them, they would have probably been phased out. for such a progressive and result oriented society like singapore. definitely.

anyway, scary stuff happened, chief coach was saying, after watching the routine he's cheorographed for one of the secondary school, the rival secondary school's teacher-in-charge blatantly tried to poach him into their school in front of their own coach! scandalous. it's quite sad to be honest.

i feel quite ready to chiong wushu also after exams. maybe go china in november? for training? but first, i must work really hard academically and work wise so that the holiday would be well deserved yah?

then maybe go for dec comp? or coach licensing? aiyah.. okay.. maybe.. at least there's some goal somewhere.

big issues happening also at inner workings of training practices. i have mixed feelings about this. on one hand.. there's really results to consider, on the other hand.. im worried about the emotional consequences which comes with it. no lah.. not me lah.. just wondering if friendship will be broken. anyway, not as if im like damn close to the person in question. i'd learnt to classify my friends properly.. who to be extra nice and thoughtful about and who not to. not that i do that delibrately.. but sometimes.. you know lah.. some people are just not that nice to you too in the first place. if i can't help them, i'll not hesitate to say no. and to the nice people, if i can't help them.. i'll also try to find someone who can help them.. get what i mean.. the length of trouble to take to help someone. but i wouldn't mind, if i really want to help.

but then again, after so many years i also don't see any improvements in the group of us, me.. so i did and do feel slightly indignant and cheated of my money/time/friendship in lieu of this matter.

from now on.. i shall be less vocal about my feelings on this. what i say probably can't help much also. we'll see how things go.. from now on.